As I was nursing Katie at 3:06 this morning, I was so tired and just wanted to go back to bed. However, I realized just how lucky I am to have a beautiful, healthy child in my arms. Yesterday at 3:18 in the morning a mother lost her beautiful child to leukemia, and I doubt she just wanted to go back to bed. There are so many things that we, as parents, take for granted (middle of the night nursing, screaming gassy babies,etc) that this mother will never get to have again.
This mother was a true example of a godly, faithful woman. She left her daughter's health and life in the hands of her true Father. She showed me how I need to be with Katie everyday. I need to leave things up to God because he has a plan.
During my 3:00 feeding this morning, I began to ponder what God's plan was for taking precious Hannah Grace, and I then realized that it was different in the eyes of everyone around them. For me, as a bystander, it was to see how faithful and obedient I should be as a Christian. As a new mother, I know I must give my baby girl over to the Lord and have faith that He will do with her life what He needs done. I am her mommy and Matt is her daddy, but he is her Father.
My heart goes out to the Crumby family for the loss of their beautiful little girl, but I know that God had a plan for this family. They sure helped me...